Maybe Too Old?

When exactly did security become paramount?  Has it always been there and become more encompassing as I got married or had kids?  Or did it just pop up when I had kids?  Was it a secret gene that my perpetually half-full father buried deep in me waiting to seep out and contaminate me upon his death?  Does it disssapate a little with age or experience?  Or do you just adjust to it and finally realize that the security was never there in the first placea nd you hd beem imaginging it all along?Answers Are Always Welcome?

Book Club

The weefe and I do not have identical taste in books by any stretch of the imagination.  However, I think we like the same concepts in general and that being strong dialogue and imaginative writing.  She might like a little fluffier books at times and I might favor the pretentious and over-bloated at times.That being said we have started a little book club to expand each others reading as most of the time we are busy reading Bear Stays Up, Ella The Elegant Elephant and Seuss books to our little spawns.I have to say that at first I was nervous about reading sappy novels by Nicholas Spark (See bad dialogue) but now I look forward to it more than I would have expected.   First off I really got off on my weefe reading my favorite book – Martin Eden by Jack London and her not only wanting to discuss it but genuinely liking it as well. to discuss it.  I then read her chosen book this week in lovely Dongguan, China – The Secret life Of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd and I was blown away.  Their is no way I would have ever picked this book out for myself and that is a shame as it was fantastic in every way.  I do not want this to turn into a book review site as I have drifted down that path before but I might start hopping on that trail again a little if this trend continues.

How?

How did I end up in the middle of China running a company that is very close be being a multimillion dollar business?  How did I get to the point of sitting across from Chinese investors and being politely grilled by then on income statements and the like?  What the hell am I doing and how did I get here? I still feel like a kid at the grown-up table and I do not know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.  Should I stay this way or do I need to be more of a grown-up myself?  I think I need to step up more than anything right now and I feel like I am on the cusp of something.  I am not sure if greatness is the way to say it and I know it sounds cocky and almost ignorant but I cannot think of a better way to describe it.I am also not going to get too fanatical about this but I am starting to believe more in one thing every day - God’s Will. If this is God’s Will then it is and I must follow it

T-Minus 2 Days

I am right on the cusp of vacation now and I need it.  It has been 2+ years since I have been out of doge and although every vacation is a working on I need this recharge and it is coming right in time.  Sweet God I am even looking to the 5+ hour drive with the little devils.

T-Minus 4 Days

Vacation is on the horizon.  After a year skipped due to impending birth of littlest lovely one we are back on track to visit Ludington, MI or my 10th or 11th time.  Besides being swamped at work, overloaded with trying to sell 2 homes (read Mom’s and ours) and a little stressed about packing for the entire 101st airborne I am very excited.  Many thing to be excited about but I can only express this using my one true love of writing…bullet points - 

• Time to read
• Time to fish
• Time to play with kids 
• Time to spend with weefe
• Time to fish
• Time to grill 
• Time to clean and eat fish
• Time to eat ice cream 
• Time to blog a little
• Time to catch up on life
• Time to fish
• Time to schedule the next 4 months in my own brain

And I am really pumped to get up at 4-5am and fish every chance I get.