Not looking for an AA meeting or anything but I think a 12-step is in order.
Go back to the beginning. Sounds like I am watching to much of the Princess Bride but this is advice worth acting upon. Blow up the old to make way for the new. That seems to be a bit more Fight Club style and I like it. Might as well start with blowing up what should have been a solid source of venting and start over again. Still no theme or set idea but I really need to challenge everything I have thought for the last decade and might as well start with myself.
I am and will continue to be fucked.