I am fairly petty and a good deal vengeful. By petty I mean to say that sometimes I take the slightest offense to heart and by vengeful I mean I will allow that pettiness to drive me beyond anger to a more premeditated state. The pettiness is clearly a character fault but is my vengeful nature a flaw?
Clearly I have left a bit of a wake at various times of my life and burned a few bridges in the process but none that I regret. Being completely honest I still have some vengeance to attend to and I have to say I look forward to it. I sometimes daydream about it and most of the times I wish I could do it in a more hateful way.
However, I need to relax a bit on the pettiness pedal and a try to use the brake a bit more. Allowing a slight or two to roll off my back might be useful in the future. Getting past a grudge might be helpful as well down the line.
However, I am not quite done with the eye for an eye part and be to honest I want more than a few eyeballs trophies still. If that is a fault I will live with it.
Update: I wrote this post about 5 days ago on a flight from China to Chicago as something came up that stirred up some of my nicely semi-hidden venom. Now that I read what I have written I think I need to amend the vengeance part. Vengeance seems so hateful and indeed it is petty. Vindictive is a better word. In my own world vindictive is more appropriate when attempting to right a wrong and bring some sort of justice to it’s end. Vindictive seems much more thought out than vengeance. And much more thorough and I like that.